is this my life now? br>
now, more than before, i ask myself how. br>
how it all ended up like this: br>
this world, these people, it all feels amiss. br>
amiss, with everything that i do br>
do nothing, and life still happens to you. br>
you always tell me that everything will be alright, br>
“alright,” i tell you, but my worries still keep me up at night. br>
night, a darkness that quickly ends br>
ends the misery, or so i think, but i just can’t make amends. br>
amends for the wrongs that people say i’ve committed br>
committed to nothing, but i say that it’d br>
it’d be okay if just once i didn’t study for that quiz, br>
quiz that should help me learn, but who can know what life really is. br>
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is this my life now? br>
now, more than before, i ask myself how. br>
how is one question, though; a better one is why? br>
“why?” is best answered with an exasperated sigh. br>
sigh, because if you think too much, all you’ll do is cry, br>
cry tears that flow down your mountain of fears br>
fears that could follow you throughout all of your years. br>
years of your life that you will never get back, br>
back to tracking all of your progress, but you’ll never receive that shiny plaque. br>
plaques can only be won by a whiz br>
whiz who is appreciated, who can actually climb that lepidobotrys br>
lepidobotrys staudtii— perhaps a tall, unclimbable tree is what this life really is. br>
is this my life now? br>
now, more than before, i ask myself how. br>
how? br>
why? br>
the more i ask, the more i cry. br>