Contains mention of homophobia
Before
Today I will no longer sit quietly
in fear of your retaliation.
Today I will say something
to remind the people around you
that they have value
so they don’t start to question their hearts.
Don’t you know that chilling is not my thing?
I feel my ears redden.
My hearts beats twice as fast
and my hands are shaking
unable to grip my pencil.
You glance at me as you “whisper” words
about love you think is wrong.
After
All conversation continues.
Let me tear up my paper
and run out the door.
You can’t expect
acceptance and
forgiveness.
Your mouth spits venom
and then
worthless
meaningless
apologies.
My friend says,
“I forgot that people were still homophobic.”
I guess the darkness finds its way in sometimes.