Little blue boy

Little blue boy,

I have always liked brown

Chocolate eyes or the dirt on my shoes

I feel your weight on my chest

It envelops me

I cannot breathe

For you have taken the air from my lungs

And stripped my soul of its steel shell

Worn so tight not even those closest haven’t  broken it

Except for you

little blue boy 

You crawl inside and i can taste your sweat as you try to rewire me

And i am so in love 

With you, little blue boy

But your heart doesn’t beat for me

or any other

When you gaze upon your reflection you do not like what you see

you think youre unworthy 

oh how wrong you are, little blue boy

So i push and I pull

because maybe its me

Maybe i am the cause

Maybe I am unworthy 

But my efforts are to no avail

you cannot love me

if you don’t first love yourself

little blue boy

but we try and try

and in our trying i grow weary

i cannot battle every day

my armor is rusting

and i can’t seem to remember the way i loved you before

little blue boy

the bright green of you eyes no longer invites

like the brown that i love

it feels like fire when we kiss

burning everything slowly

killing me slowly

little blue boy, i cannot burn any longer

cannot set myself on fire so you can glow

and like your reflection

so you can feel my heat against your skin and let me warm you so you do not have to

little blue boy